ball!

ball ball _ball ball ball
BALLBALL_BALL BALL BALL

It's all a bit exciting really!

beautiful surprises

Things can fall apart.
House Choirs

Things can go well.
Lit help

People can be ignorant and demanding.
Let's not mention

People can understand.
Too many to even start mentioning

I miss people!
I'll bet you can guess who you are

My mum sure loves me - dress, shoes, more shoes, belt, brooches...I should get stressed out more often =]

when you get right down to it

sometimes life isn't what you expect, but it can be a whole lot better.

First Gig Sunday arvo session yesterday.
I was too scared to be honest.

Team Xtreme were extreme-ing it up at church last night.
Again, I was too scared to be honest.

I'm a bit scared of being honest with God all up. It still scares me someone can actually take control and let me just sit back and relax. I've never been too talented at that, as I'm doing a great job of demonstrating at the moment with all the Arts-Fest related things going on. Something to think about, I know that much.
More importantly, something to act on. But I'm still working out how.

Sometimes it's a lot easier to say you're thinking about something, then choose to never act on it. So you still have your facade up, but you're really just stuck in the same place as you've always been and never really moved forward.

So - to move on to more superficial, but quite exciting things - ball dress is almost finished!

another supre purchase

It seems to be happening more often to me lately. I buy things at Supre. But hey - a $15 dress I can wear to afters/anywhere else, I can't complain!
Other than a few Supre purchases (I didn't just buy a dress...you know how it is, you've got to spend spend spend!), I had the first official dress fitting today where the dress wasn't just calico. I'm still a little 'hmmmm' about it, which isn't necessarily a good thing, but like I keep reminding myself, it is okay because it's not actually finished yet, and it would be weird if I preferred something unfinished than finished. So a final fitting on Monday should see all the yellow tacking pulled out, Uncle Peter happy to have me stop walking through his room to look at the dress in the mirror/his Premiership Cup and me finally owning a dress! Which is always a very exciting part of the ball, seeing as it is basically the main focus of the ball.
Hair issues and makeup issues which will resolve themselves =]
Don't you just love setting aside a day to do all your homework, then ending up shopping all day? To me, that is what makes it perfect!
<3 for Miss Mauds!

mood swing #3728701959890392017

In the last twelve hours I have felt:
* tired
* happy
* exhausted
* sad
* stressed
* angry
* calm
* frustrated
* furious
* happy (again)
* surprised
* relaxed
* happy (again)
* fed-up
* ecstatic
* blase
* hungry
* full

Great isn't it =] Other than that, I saw the wonderful Kattyo for a whole three minutes! That has so got to be our personal record. And I saw Stevo which was quite awesome, cos I haven't seen that boy for a long time! In any case, back to my strenuous media assignment involving watching three movies and making yourself sound smart about them. Ooohh yeah =]

so the first thing i'll say to anyone starting year twelve...

Expect a fair few mood swings in the space of only a few short hours!
So yet again, I'm back to happy Emily. Still slightly wound up, a little stressed, but it's amazing what a good House Choirs rehearsal and a hellish Group Training session can do to your relaxation levels.

...don't give up, you've got the music in you...

okay so i lied

Pretty much everything I said yesterday you can completely ignore.

Too much responsibility
Too much pressure
Too many expectations
Not enough left in me to really care anymore

really happiness isn't that hard to find

It's funny, how in the time when I'm more stressed than I have ever been, and I am juggling more things than I imagined possible, I am feeling remarkably calm and truly, honestly happy. I don't care how contradictory that sounded, because it's the truth.

Our house is getting ripped apart, so there is no privacy, I'm overloaded with schoolwork, the pressure is stacked on for Arts Fest, music group commitment requires two extra early mornings, work is unpredictable and gives me one less sleep-in day, I still don't have my dress made for the ball, I've had so many people be super-confidey, I manage to fit in youth group, church, helping out with Andrea's wedding, keeping in touch with my close mates and somehow, I really don't feel that unbalanced.

It kind of makes me wonder (this is where I'm going to sound hopelessly selfish and most likely judgemental and cruel, but I feel like getting this out) how people who really do have it good, who have low stress level living situations, who are smart, comfortable, attractive and generally have a lot going for them, insist on being upset? Insist on being depressed constantly and when asked how they are reply 'feeling really bad lately' and can't see the brightness in anything? I don't know. It confuses me. And that weird and very undescriptive description of my thoughts probably confused you too!!

In any case, the epic ball is coming up (March 2nd - only...umm...ten days for those who actually care!) and there will be fake tans galore. But no for me!! Nope nope! I will retain my white glow as everyone else takes on an orange one. But I suppose that is to be expected =]. Still in mixed moods about afters, but hey, everything'll work out okay right? Right!

Study!!!

na na na na friend friend

Some days just aren't great for your blood pressure.
Very very quickly accelerating beyond normal levels.

My daddy went and got the chiffon for my dress =]

my brother has decided that next summer he will grow a mullet

Other than that it's been a crazy night.

I'm exhausted from all this emotion.

someday we'll know

Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving I don’t know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earheart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I’m speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight

Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Dalilah?
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know

That I was the one for you....

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I can ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me tonight?

Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Mandy Moore/Switchfoot

materialism!

So the whole 'I don't have a ball dress' thing was starting to get old. And finally today we went to a material shop in woop-woop and got some stuff, tried on the calico version of the dress (which is, of course, just lovely....*ahem*) and so it'll all be done by next weekend for the final fitting type thing. Which is a relief and a half!

Although this material shop was pretty crazy. It was full of these indian-type materials and I was thinking I'd end up in a sari. Thank goodness for aunts who don't like crazy patterns.

So now it's on to try and fix up all the things that need some serious fixing that are Arts Fest related....
Fun fun!

mmm....chocolate

Well, firstly, Happy Valentine's Day you crazy kids. Even though I think this day is quite pointless and a slightly Hallmark-corrupted money-waster, it's still cute when people talk about their happy Valentine-ness. But today would have to be the greatest Valentine's Day I've ever experienced. I haven't eaten so much chocolate since before Christmas.
The chocolate Emily has eaten today:

...lots and lots of Maltesers....

...a whole block between three of us...

...a mini bus party...

...more bus food goodness...

And I had chocolate cake and a cupcake. But I can't be bothered finding their pictures. All in all, a very chocolatey day. Hooray!!

mondays

We are missing a kitchen!
I'm not kidding...I come home and it looks like someone's put a bomb in the kitchen and blown it all up and put all the mess on the front lawn.
But still....looks kinda cool =]
Despite the eating outside thing getting old very quickly, I'm liking this new change. Six years later we will finally get new curtains! NO MORE UGLY FLOWERS!
And De Grey didn't lose Yr 11/12 Interhouse Tennis/Volleyball =]

...where did i go wrong, i lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness...

mmm...phlegm

Yumm....sickness =]

These tablets are my friends. Yay for blocked noses and semi-scratchy throats! Or not.
I love weekends.

Some induction && school uniformy goodness:

I can see adelaide!

On TV!!! How bizarre is that? Oh, but Adelaide the girl, not Adelaide the city.
How awesome is that? But also really trippy.

That's all =]

wednesday = babysitting

I really really crave a cup of tea.

But it is way too hot.

And well done De Grey girls!!
Third by only six points, only house to fill every race and have no disqualifications and the most amazing house spirit I've seen in a long time!

I am so dead.

monday week 2

* we are ripping apart our kitchen
* organization has gone down the toilet
* everything is hard
* everything is due in the same week
* i'm actually seriously stressed for the first time in my life


I need a break =[

Post #301

Do we need to talk?
I think yes but I can't tell.
I suck at taking first steps, but if I need to I will, cos I've decided honesty is important, and friendships are even more important.

Here's to Week Two of Year Twelve.

some things i've learned in week one of year 12...

.: new stationery is good and colourful and clean and un-lost
.: the transition to year 12 from year 11 is surprisingly not that bad
.: trying to teach a group of 150 girls a boring song is one of the hardest things you will ever do
.: do not forget to do your homework
.: lockers in Upper Maths are bad. Lockers outside the Library (excuse me, Information and Technology Centre) are better, but still not good.
.: the bus should not leave at 4:00pm, but somehow it still manages to
.: being late for your bus because you went to the deli is not a good idea (but is good fun)
.: doing something nice for your friend makes you happy =]
.: early morning music rehearsals are very overrated
.: Grey's Anatomy is your friend if you feel sad/stressed
.: sometimes saying the things that are on your mind to someone you trust is a good way of clearing your head
.: organisation is the key! (to success *ugh*)
.: RAPS is overrated. So is P.E.
.: do your notes asap otherwise they will never get done
.: too many assessments is not good for your health
.: salads for lunch are good, despite you not making friends with them
.: book audition places and times ASAP otherwise you may get stuck with yucky places
.: do not get distracted 100% FOCUS!!!
.: Group Training hurts lots
.: do not pick at your nailpolish otherwise it looks weird and bitten
.: do not forget your diary otherwise you will FAIL AT LIFE
.: don't walk into Year Eight classes or they will laugh at you
.: tell people to move on the stairs
.: smile and enjoy every second of it, cos it will be over way too soon