This used to be me a lot. I'd always practice what I was going to say, how I was going to say it, to make sure I didn't make a fool of myself or embarrass other people or made others laugh or managed to disguise myself so people would like me more. But it's a lot harder than people give it credit for. I finally started holding conversations in person I hadn't held in my head first, and that's the same time I started finding out who my real friends were. I never realised how true it was when good old Uncle Col said what comes out of your mouth is often a true reflection of who you are.