Emily is a whinger

I'm a very naive person in a lot of ways. For example, I never knew the extent of devastation I could feel about taking the decisive action that I feel is the right one. I believed that if you do the right thing, then your pain will be minimal.

I never knew that I could cry every day for a week and a half straight and still not feel better. I just believed that one cry every three months could sustain you. Crying is the worst thing anyway.

I also had no idea that there are no lines, just a big mish-mash of grey space that you can't discern between being right and wrong. There's no black and white, just different actions you can take that lead to a different outcome.

I had no idea how not-independent I am.

I didn't know that different situations affect the extent to which the choices you make matter.

I also had no idea how freaking long my brother can pee for. He's been going for like half an hour.
Sorry for that mental picture.