radio stories

I heard the funniest thing on the radio yesterday! Okay so, the song that goes 'Everybody dance now'? Yup?
Well! The presenter's little girl sings along with it (she's about two) and instead of 'everybody dance now' she sings 'everybody's pants down'!!!!
BAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHA!
I laughed endlessly =]

thoughts running through my mind

overwhelming exciting stressful unrestful chocolate being fit beating my best too much striving always being the grumpy 'bad' leader i love taking photos workworkwork my poor friends =[ i love my girls MP3 is awesome dominating assignments french! going out for lunch lots of savings birthday parties! maths is fun christian porter is wonderful fun adventures coming up really need to sleep more keep being organized love God's word be inspired read for fun stay dedicated organization is not for the weak music makes life fun i enjoy being a 'regular' collecting juice lids with fun facts! awesome stationery makes study so much better online shopping is lovely new hobbies sportsportsport holidays orange glasses i need new sunnies driving is lame this weather is lame, i want sun MASSIVE BLISTERS EATING MY HEELS Zephaniah 3:17 I'm going to name my kid Zerubabbel I miss Hillsong GOSPEL MUSIC methinks a trip to Koorong is needed cups of tea hooray for Tuesdays and no uni hooray for Cotton On Body new socks time Grease dancing is fun all dancing is fun talking on the phone about nothing random messages cheap cheap pretzels Gloria Jeans is my second home choochoochoose you love life

EMILY HAS NO FRIENDS RAWR!

flickrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I've joined the cool club and set up a Flickr account here. It's kind of exciting, I'm learning how to make photos look more not bad. Did you like my combinations of grammatically incorrect phrases in that sentence???
I sure did!
It's all very exciting, Kat's 365 project. So there is my (kind of sad) attempt at being good at a) photo taking and b) creativity. But, I figure 365 photos gives me a chance to get somewhat good at it!
So yes... feel free to laugh at my badness at photo taking and leave me a comment or two telling me I'm a fool =]
I quite enjoy it!

contemplative thoughts

I have really realized lately that I am quite terrible at being a good close friend.
I think I panic and then hide.

That is all.

Love

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow

The Desert Song//Brooke Fraser

This song just makes so much sense to me. The whole CD This is Our God is just amazing, but this song was the main one that spoke to me all conference.

what i'm grateful for:

* wonderful friends
* honesty
* the wisdom of fabulous older people
* ice cream
* the gym
* projects!
* pretty colours
* productivity
* ikea
* treadmills
* Bibles
* the international phonetic alphabet
* accents
* coffee
* cameras
* having a future to look forward to
* clever election slogans =]
* the Olympics!
* lots of phone credit
* Moo
* being able to learn and learn and learn

And what I'm not grateful for:
* Russia and Georgia being at war. Sad Emily. Sad Georgia.

oh my goodness

MASSIVE VOMIT

'And then, on the day we broke up, I was like, I want to make my hair black now — I don't want to look pretty; I want to look hard-core. I was rebelling against everything Nick wanted me to be. And then I was like, I've got to be by myself for now, and just figure out who I really am."

Weird.
Weird weird weird.
Weird weird weird weird weird.

Did I mention I thought that was REALLY WEIRD?

IT'S ALMOST THE OLYMPICS! I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!

Life is always so exciting!

My room has been totally ikea-ified. It looks oh so different! But I rather enjoy it, so all is fabulous. I can even see the window from my desk! I don't have to twist around in a circle anymore! Hooray.

My favourite event in the world, the Olympics, start tonight! We shall be celebrating with an Olympics celebration with jelly and country-specific foods. Speaking of, I need to print some decorations.

Blistex makes me so happy. My lips are normal and crack-free!

This is extremely nerdy, but interesting assignments always make me happy. I have a few coming up and I'm so excited to do them! Yup. Nerd.

I'm still hopelessly addicted to stationery. I've started using my fountain pen again which is all very exciting, and I have some mini ones in cahrazy colours! And pretty tapes, and nice cards, and exciting stamps... *sigh of happiness*

I'm still going hard at the gym. Only because every time I feel lazy I remind myself that I'm wasting a portion of my $50. That motivates me any day.

I can now write words using the phonetic alphabet which is SO COOL! You can write 'light' like [lait]. Oh how exciting!

And... that's enough ranting. I'm going to go Olympify the games room!

mmm

This week has frustrated me, because everything's gone really well but I seem to feel really crap about it all.
And God's shown me that once again, I need to stop burying everything for ages, because it means when I want to bring it up its a non-issue to the world but a huge issue to me, and then that seems silly to say anything... so I don't. But basically where I'm at is whether to just say it and make myself feel better even if I really hurt the other person, which is definitely not the desired outcome, or whether I should just remember that the other person's feelings are more important and therefore say nothing, and just suffering a little bit more myself. Which isn't that big a deal, but kind of is.

Anyway, this is just a bit of a whinge, but I want to get it off my chest.
... so I won't rant at you (non-existent) people who read this any more.

Instead I'll focus on happy things like the Olympics and cheap biscuits.

emily's life list

I'm addicted to the idea of life lists lately. They make me feel like I'm both dreaming up a future and also being organized and planned at the same time. Handy combination! I have one on my myspace that I never ever ever ever use anymore! So here is my new and revised life list for the rest of 2008. I guess it's more of an update on my New Years' Resolutions:

Use and finish a lip balm/gloss and not lose it
Bake something amazing
Learn sign language
Learn how to knit a scarf and a beanie
Choreograph a dance (in the process...)
Finish the Bible
Do one random act of kindness every day. (Well,you know, more than one would be fabulous, but a conscious one every day at least!)
Own a fabulously expensive pair of high heels
Play the piano again
Be able to spend my entire allotted time on the treadmill actually running and not dying
Learn to stop being judgmental
Use moisturizer
Embrace being tidy and not lazy
Save a lot of money to buy great great Christmas presents
Complete three creative projects
Be accountable
Read: Dating Delilah, Captivating, and the Mike Pilavachi one
Decorate my room
Take millions of photos
Be able to lift more than one weight at the gym
Be able to swim 30 laps in one swimming session (yep I'm totally pathetic)
Find a new favourite band
Go to more concerts (I've bought a Faker ticket!)
Dominate Uni
Get a fabulously fabulous job for the summer holidays

And that'll do for now. It's Monday tomorrow! My favourite!!!
xxxxx

what have you been doing lately, life has been improving greatly

I feel so yuppie saying I've been going to the gym, but I have, and I'm quite proud of myself! I am learning to be fit and healthy and deal with a lot of pain when I walk up and down stairs.









I heart these albums:























Uni is fantastic, and I have the best units ever this semester. Just a lot of learning to do. French literature is slowly becoming my friend, international politics is rather interesting, CHRISTIAN PORTER is my Criminal Law Tutor and Linguistics is just wonderful.



Dance gets more exciting and crazy every week - we're up to twenty dancers. Insane!




Wednesday night Salt at the Christie's was actually really amazing. That made me excited =]

Moo just keeps trucking along - I'm getting really ready for it to close. But - we shall see what God wants there. Hopefully he'd like it closed too =P

I've been surprised how fabulous my new three plan has been - I have not even come close to going over and I use my phone obscenely much. Hooray for good value caps =]

The weekend: Cement Picnic, work, waitressing, gym, church, footy, MP3, hooray!

And finally, the Wii is pretty much the most exciting thing in the world. Tennis! Bowling! Wii Fit and jogging! Hitting Rabbits! Texting! Golf! Mario Kart! Hooray!

tomorrow!

Monday!
Uni goes back!
French to learn!
Dance to teach!
Swimming to do!
Room to clean!
Officeworks to visit!
Scrapbook to decorate!
Cross-stitch to finish!
Bible to read!
Wii to play!
Letters to send!
TV shows to watch!
McFlurries to eat!
Lists to complete!
Sleep to have!
Hooray!

an exciting week

Dance starts again this afternoon! I'm excited because Michelle's got all these awesome dreams for the future of Soul to Sole, and there's a lot of potential in the girls to really pull a dance together. And Christmas dance already starting to be planned! I don't like pre-empting Christmas, but when it's to do with dancing, it's a totally different scene. I'm so excited!

I received a Scrapbooking Kit for my birthday from the lovely Jess Waddell. I rarely let my creative side actually do something constructive, but I've kind of enjoyed putting together all my party pictures and making it look lovely! I'm still quite terrible at it, I get frustrated halfway through and give up, but it's slowly coming together. And it's nice to look back at what I've done and remember all the moments both at the party and the memories I have with the people in the photos. Ugh I'm getting so mushy and sentimetal!

My embroidery I started last holidays is still only half finished, but I've pulled it out again and I'm slowly getting through it. It looks like a picture now which is way more inspiring than a big grey splodge in the middle of the material. But I enjoy having projects!

I start properly tutoring this week again. I know it's really nerdy, but I really like tutoring. I do get frustrated sometimes, but I feel like I'm learning to be way more patient, and I've had some really good feedback from some of the parents which is exciting. I'm glad I'm actually helping these people and not just ripping them off every week!

Israel Houghton, Hillsong Live and ABBA are taking over my life! I have listened to these CDs over and over and over again. It just puts me in the best mood ever.

I'm working at Moo at lot this week too - that's not all that exciting, but I'm excited for the nice big pay I'll get next fortnight. That's always reassuring!

The timetable for this semester comes out on Friday. I like having a plan in place for what's happening in the near distant future.

We have a Wii and even better, a Wii Fit! It's kind of depressing that the scales are more accurate than the downstairs ones, but it's ALL GOOD because it's so much fun and it abuses me about my centre of gravity! And even better, we have Mario Kart with the awesome wheel. It's fabulousssssssss


That's enough ranting for now!

my new favourite movie

I don't care that it makes me a loser, it was the best thing I've ever seen!
I'm listening to Abba at work tomorrow - Garden City must hate me so much.

new again

I love the sensation of a fresh start. It has to be one of my favourite feelings in the whole world. The cool thing about it is it can come with a big of sadness, or happiness, or fear, or excitement, or regret, or calmness, but no matter what, you know you're starting again and you can't turn back. I think it's fairly special.

Coming home from Sydney is really challenging me in a lot of ways. Hillsong Conference was such a fantastic experience, and I had so many revelations from God about what He can do for us. He literally washed me clean, He restored my faith and hope and He totally confirmed that it is all not at all about me. He gave me this insatiable desire to read His word, and to talk about Him. It was awesome.

Then on the flight home, I made friends with the person sitting next to me, and I felt myself slipping back into the old person I was. The cool thing was, that they'd addressed this at the conference - slipping back isn't me failing, it's just me choosing to change. All I had to do was say 'No, I'm not changing, my faith is in Jesus and I want to be like him' and it was cool again. Of course, it's a ridiculously slow process, but nevertheless - a fresh start.

It was weird waking up the next day and suddenly having to be under the rules of a house, instead of doing what I felt like, as well as what Ali did. But generally, I could walk down the street, grab a coffee, read the Bible, shop a bit - all without having to think about what others expected me to do. It's something I'm learning to adjust to within the whole Servant Heart attitude.

I am doing a big clean out of my room - one of my favourite fresh starts. Getting rid of the things I pointlessly hoard, tidying up and reorganizing, putting what's important in front of me. Cleaning out my drawers and giving stuff away - I just want to give everything away all of a sudden. I'm sick of having an excess of things I don't need - thank God for that revelation. He's the ultimate provider, and if we want to be like Him, we better start providing for other people. Selfishness is so pointless. A hard habit to break, but still - another fresh start.

Finally, I got to drink Starbucks, eat Krispy Kreme, worship with 20 000 people from all over the world, eat bagels, buy matching things, grow closer with Jesus, learn to be more honest with my friends, write letters, buy exciting stationery and become more convicted about my life's plan. Pretty awesome fresh start in my opinion!

the first of july

It is officially the second half of the year (maybe not in days, but months-wise!) I have turned eighteen, uni semester one is done and dusted, I've read numerous books, done numerous things, discovered uncountable things, head off to Sydney in a couple of days, drink excessive amounts of coffee... and so on and so on.

My cocktail party was pretty much the greatest night of my life. I hope other people thought it was just a fraction of the fun I thought it was, and I'd totally be happy *big smiles*
A pictorial review of the night (even though they're all on facebook, but WHATEV TREV it's still fun to decorate):

Balloons were collected and placed around, even though they were totally not what we asked for. But they looked so lovely I didn't care.


I discovered my brand new camera does labels!


I saw the school girls for the first time in aages, and got a lovely Tiffany's necklace


Some more of my beautiful girls


I particularly enjoy the greatness of this photo


And this one


Blasts from the Past...s





And the not so Past


There was cake:


And dancing:


And lovely cocktails (how very handy at a Cocktail party!) with umbrellas:


And my brother is an alcoholic:

It was my party, I should've been holding the cocktail, not him!
*sigh*

But I got some lovely lovely presents I need to do massive thankyous for.... tiffanys necklaces, bulk cash, pandora charms, whales!, smiggle vouchers!, clutches, jewelry, beautiful mirrors!, nutella!, cocktail glasses, and the most wonderful cards in the world.
Hooray for being eighteen and fabulous birthdays!


But after all that, Sydney is fast approaching. I have a lot of expectations on what will happen there, so hopefully at least some are fulfilled. I'm excited to see Steve again as well, and spend lots of money in Sydney!

Also, I bought a new phone today. Hooray for bulk credit and no more limiting my text message replies and being rude and not calling!

There are many other exciting news things to catch the world up on, but now is sleeping time.
So I'll leave it there!

emily's addictions

1. Birthdays


I really really really love birthdays. I wish we could have them all the time every day. I was constantly speaking to someone on the phone, reading birthday messages, or visiting with the people who dropped in. And eating lots and lots of cake. It was fantastic! And I got wonderful presents, especially my Pandora bracelet. Which is slowly being filled with more and more charms every time someone new comes over! Which is very exciting. And I had a fabulous night out with my girls as well, so it was basically the best day of my life. Pretty much. =]

2. E-Bay

I was always too scared to use ebay because it looked too complicated and what if you didn't like something, etc. etc. But, I was telling my aunt I needed a birthday dress and she got onto ebay and was showing all these fabulous and actually cheap ones, which can arrive ideally soon but who knows? Anyway, I found out that you get emails telling you that you won, so basically, I'm hooked. I have now purchased two dresses! But it'll depend on when they arrive as to whether I wear them or not. So, that brings us along to the next addiction...

3. Dresses

I am so addicted to dresses. They are just so exciting. There's not much else to say about them other than they're great. But they are. Really really great.

4. Chocolates

I have soooo much chocolate from my birthday, but I don't care because I can just eat my way through it as I study away for the last three exams! LAST THREE!! I got a cocktail glass filled with roses from mum's work friend Marilyn and it's basically my favourite present.

5. Mi Goreng

Fastest meal in the world.

6. A Beautiful Mess

Here.

7. Stationery

It's one of the best things in the world to buy, and basically the one thing I'm most looking forward to about Sydney. We can just spend whole days in Smiggle. WHOLE DAYS OF STATIONERY!

8. Dance

We've choreographed a bit of Mirror, by BarlowGirl and so far I'm really excited about it. And there's a concert in November, and I love hanging out with the girls and watching how much they improve from week to week. Well, the week to the week I get there. But still, they're a gorgeous group.

9. Photos

I'm going into camera withdrawal and I'm going to buy a new one on Friday in preparation for my cocktail party on Saturday!

10. Phones

Seeing as I'm (FINALLY) nearly off the crapness plan that is Virgin, I can go on to bigger and better things! I've decided to keep my options open for an iPhone and am going to Vodafone, and finding a phone I won't destruct. It will be hard, but I think I'll be able to do it....

Being 18

Okay so I'm not there yet. But I will be tomorrow =] And I've been thinking about it a lot.

Actually Being 18
I'm not entirely sure what will change, aside from my ability to go to concerts. I mean, when the clock gets to midnight, I'm not magically going to grow taller or be filled with wisdom and be a real adult. Okay, I'll be able to vote but whatever. Nothing physically changes. But it is very cool nonetheless.

Parties
I'm mostly very super duper excited about my Cocktail Party next Saturday. Parties are my favourite part of birthdays, any birthdays. You have lots of people around, you can all dress up and look lovely, you listen to music, you can really talk to people. They're just so fun =] I'm a bit embarrassed about a few of the things they're doing at my party but whatever! We'll have a massive chocolate cake so that's totally awesome with me.

Presents
It's funny but I don't actually care about presents at all. Like whether I get them or not. I never really want anything particular (except PLEASE GOD LET ME GET A NEW LIGHT FOR MY BEDROOM BECAUSE I CAN'T SEE A THING IN THERE). But I got one of my favourite presents of all time last night =] And I believe that will continue on for a while. So that is fun =] And it's fun all the mystery around it, because mum knows what EVERYONE is getting me and she keeps dropping hints but not real hints, just allusions to birthdays and being 18 and it taking 5 - 7 working days to arrive. Anyway. That's just to say I really love what presents mean, not the actual present. And a card totally counts as a present!

Photos
And my favouritest favouritest part of birthdays (asides from parties and cake) is the photos. So I'll be buying a camera this week! But that's beside the point! I love the after-the-party part, when you come home and put all the photos on the computer and look properly at what everyone was wearing, and what was happening and who was talking to who and it's all very wonderful.

And I'm just ranting, but it's making me realize I actually am quite excited for tomorrow =] And next Saturday =]
Anyway, my stress about study has still not subsided so I'm off to go learn about WWI, the Russian Revolution and Nazi Germany, but it makes it nice to know I'll get a break from it tomorrow =]

motivationless rant

I feel rather hopeless right now.

I can see pages and pages of information on Politics and History I need to memorize, in order to write three essays and do sixty multiple choice.
It seems like such a waste to panic over all of this rubbish when that's all I'll do.
Three essays and sixty multi choice.
And only four hours of my life.

ARGH.

That's the thing that gets me about these exams. They seem so futile. I will never need to know all this stuff again.
I'm not doing a History unit.
Politics I knew most of it anyway.
So why should we do exams, where I panic and stress and make myself sick, just so I can get an okay mark?
All I need is 50% to get a credit anyway. So 60% for a distinction.
Which isn't great, but whatever. I don't care.
I HAVE LOST MY MOTIVATION AHHHHHHH
MOTIVATION COME BACK TO ME!
AT LEAST FOR THE NEXT WEEK!

EVERYBODY'S GONE SURFING

I have been ina weird mood lately.
I finished Criminal Law Exam.
Grammar great yes?
I type in capitals to relieve my anger
I ate a whole block of chocolate today
I broke the phone
I love lipgloss
I don't love readings and taking notes and learning for exams
I love facebook groups dedicating to learning a whole unit in a week
I love birthdays and parties
I love it nearly being my birthday!
And I love you all.
The end.
A survey to not occupy you.

List 100 things about your self

1) Full Name:
emily alison zylstraaaaaa

2) Male/Female:
i'm female but i'm a manly female

3) Were you named after anyone?
No. I don't need to be.

4) Does your name mean anything?
Awesome.

5) Nick Name(s):
Em, Zylllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeee
Or to some, Emmy
Or, as my pop will never let me forget...
no I'm not telling it's too embarrassing

6) Who do you think you look like:
ME

7) Date Of Birth:
21/06/1990
Only four more sleeps!

8) Place of Birth and Current Location:
Part a) FITZROY, VICTORIA
part b) PERTH

9) Nationality:
Je suis australienne

10) Astrology Sign:
I DON'T BELIEVE IN THEM

11) Chinese Astrology Sign:
I'M NOT CHINESE

12) Religion:
NO CHINESE
OH WAIT
CHRISTIAN

13) What’s your favorite smell?
GOOD ONES


14) Political Position?
I'M NOT POSITIONED POLITICALLY
UNLESS IT COUNTS TO BE AGAINST KEVIN RUDD FOR BEING A RHETORICAL ASIAN SPEAKING WASTE OF SPACE WHO DOESN'T ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING BUT SAY BUZZ PHRASES LIKE 'I'M BRING DOWN PETROL PRICES' AND 'EDUCATION REVOLUTION!' AND 'I'M GETTING THE TROOPS OUT OF IRAQ BUT NOTHING IS HAPPENING NO NO NO NO NO
That's allll

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Tea or a really fabulous coffee

16) Hair + Eye color:
My hair is red and my eyes are BROWN OR GREEN

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
NOPE

18) What do you look like?
What's this obsession with what I look like/??

19) Any unusual talents?
I CAN SAY THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?
I WRITE WITH MY RIGHT HAND

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?
JE SUIS STRAIGHT

22) What do you do for a living?
I WORK AT MOO AND SELL YOGHURT.
AND I AM A STUDENT. ISN'T IT EXCIIIITING.
OH AND I TUTOR MATHS AND CHEMISTRY. I'M A MATHS STAR

23) What do you do for fun?
I PLAY THE PIANO AND I DANCE AND I SOCIALIZE AND I DRINK COFFEE

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?
A NEEDLE AND THREAD

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
I DON'T CARE

26) Have you met your grandparents?
YES, ONE OF THEM IS IN HOLLAND CURRENTLY.
THAT MAKES ME LAUGH BECAUSE I BET HE'S LOST

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend.
THAT IS NOT A QUESTION! I LIKE BOYS WHO BRING ME CHOCOLATE AND TELL ME I'M AWESOME

28) Crushing?:
ON YOUR FACE

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
ALLL OF THEMMMMM

30) Current worries?
THAT I'LL FAIL HISTORY AND POLITICS AND LIFE

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s):
UM.

32) Favorite place to be?
AWAY AND GALLIVANTING AROUND THE WORLD!
OR BUYING STATIONERY!

33) Least favorite place to be?
SOMEWHERE WHERE THERE IS NO COFFEE

34) Do you burn or tan?
BURN BURN BURN BURN BURN

35) Ever break a bone?
NOOOOOOO

36) What is your favorite cereal?
I DON'T LIKE CEREAL I ONLY EAT TOAST OR TEA FOR BREAKFAST
TEA A DRINK WITH JAM AND BREADDDDD AND THAT BRINGS US BACK TO DO DO DO DO

37) Person you cry with?
REAL MEN DON'T CRY

Do You Have...
38) Any sisters:
NO BUT I HAVE HYPOTHETICAL SISTERS.
I JUST TYPED SYSTEMS INSTEAD OF SISTERS. HOW EMBARRASSING

39) Any brothers:
YES I HAVE ONE REAL BROTHER AND ONE PRETEND BROTHER

40) Any pets:
NO NO NO

41) An Illness:
I'M TOO GOOD FOR ILLNESSES
ALTHOUGH MY NOSE IS PERMANENTLY BLOCKED

42) A Pager:
PFFT.

43) A Personal phone line:
EVERYONE OVER HTE AGE OF ONE MONTH HAS A MOBILE

44) A Cell phone:
HA! TOLD YOU!

45) A visible birthmark:
NO. I HAVE NO BIRTH MARK.
ALTHOUGH I DO HAVE A CHICKEN POX SCAR
DOES THAT COUNT?
HEY THE BEACH BOYS JUST CAME ON! =]

46) A Pool or hot tub:
OUI, NOUS AVONS UNE PISCINE!

47) A Car:
I SHARE ONE. I CAN'T AFFORD A CAR. THEY EAT MY MONEY AND PETROL

Describe Your...
48) Personality:
UNEXCITING

49) Driving:
BAHAHHAHA.
AWESOME.
MAYBE A TAD ON THE FAST SIDE


50) Your clothing style:
I HAVE NO STYLE

51) Room:
LARGE AND MESSY AND COMFY

52) What’s missing:
YOU

53) School:
FINISHED!
I MISS SHAGS BUT
IT WAS SO PRETTY

54) Bed:
COSYYYYYYYYYY

55) Relationship with your parent(s):
IT IS RELATIONSHIPY

56) Do you believe in yourself:
MAYBE.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?:
WHATEV

58) Consider yourself a good listener:
MAYBE

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?
WHAT IF I SAY NO? THEN WHAT?
HUH? HUH?
WELL, I'LL TELL YOU ONE
I AM GOING TO GO TO FRANCE AND MEET A BEAUTIFUL FRENCH BOY AND MARRY HIM AND HE WILL BE RICH AND WE'LL LIVE IN A CASTLE AND I'LL BE A PRINCESS

60) Get Along with your parentS:
YEAH, WELL WHAT MORE CAN YOU EXPECT, WE DO THE PARENT/AWESOME DAUGHTER THING

61) Save your e-mail conversations:
NO =S

62) Pray:
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

63) Believe in reincarnation:
NAH ONE LIFE IS GOOD FOR ME =] GOD WILL MAKE IT GOOD!

65) Like to talk on the phone:
YEAH KIND OF DEPENDS ON TO WHO

66) Like to eat?
I LIVE TO EAT
I LOVE EATING
EATING IS THE GREATEST EVER
I WISH I COULD EAT ALL THE TIME!

67) Like to exercise?
EH, DEPENDS

68) Like to watch sports?
FOOTBALL AND NETBALL IF IT'S A GOOD GAME

69) Sing in the car?
ALL THE TIME! THAT'S MY FAVOURITE PART ABOUT LONG DRIVES

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?
I DON'T HAVE DREAMS

71) Dream in color:
.........

72) Do you have nightmares?
I DID THE OTHER NIGHT! HOW MEBARASSING!

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal:
NAH IT'D GET KILLED
I'M A LETHAL SLEEPER

74) Right next to you:
BLISTEX AND RUSSIA READINGS
I DIDN'T DO THEM OBVIOUSLY

75) On your favorite coffee cup?
IT IS PLAIN WHITE AND LOVELY =]

76) On your mouse pad:
LAPTOPS DON'T DO MOUSE PADS

77) Your favorite flavor of gum?
MINTY MINT MINT!

78) Your brand of deodorant?
WHATEVER I CAN GET! REXONA ATM I BELIEVE

79) Your dream honeymoon spot:
EUROPE!

80) Your dream husband/wife:
SOMEONE WHO BUYS ME CHOCOLATE AND PRETTY THINGS AND TAKES ME ON TRAVELS AROUND THE WORLD

81) Hiding in your closet?
ME!
HAHAHA JUST KIDDING

82) Under your bed
NOTHING!
MAYBE A PEN OR TWO

83) The name of your closest/best friends?:
THERE ARE A GAZILLION TRILLION OF THEM
TO EVEN LIST THEM WOULD TAKE MY LIFE TIME!
BUT IS HALL LIST THEM IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER:
ACTUALLY NO I'M WORRIED I'LL MISS SOME OUT
YOU KNOW IF YOU'RE MY CLOSEST/BESTEST FRIEND
84) Your favorite time of the day:
ANY TIME I AM HAPPY

85) Your worst fear(s):
RAWR

86) What's the weather like:
I CAN'T SEE OUT THE WINDOW IT IS DARK

87) Your favorite time of year?
ALL TIMES OF THE YEAR

88) Your favorite holiday?
ANYWHERE

89) A material weakness?
CLOTHES AND CHEAP CHEAP ACCESSORIES

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like:
UGH I DONT KNOW


91) At the top of your "to-do list"?
FINISH EXAMS
SO SO CLOSE... NOT

92) The hardest thing about growing up:
EVERYTHING GETS COMPLICATED AND SHITTY

93) A pet peeve?
PEOPLE WHO DON'T GO FAST ON THE FREEWAY!

94) Your scariest moment:
I NEARLY GOT RUN OVER BY A BUS ONCE




95) Your attitude about love?
WELL I LIKE MY SKETCHERS, BUT I LOVE MY PRADA BACKPACK

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?
NOTHING
I GET THEIR ATTENTION WITH OUT TRYING
LOL JUST KIDDING!


97) The worst feeling in the world:
BEING SAD



98) The best feeling in the world:
BEING NOT SAD



99) Who sent this to you:
YOUR FACE

100) 6 people you tag:
NO
I REFUSE

the many ways to not do study

A GOOGLE SURVEY

Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
Emily needs eating companions around noon on Wednesday =] I love eating companions!

2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search
Emily looks like a man!!

3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google:
Emily does the Salmon Dance just like her dad
.. hmm...

4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
Emily hates the way her mum cooks turkey.
I found a site dedicated to 'We Hate Emily' =[ =[

5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search :
Emily has gone mobile and she's burning trees.

6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:
Emily loves to bounce

7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
Emily eats elephants
Or
Emily eats eggs. She struggles.

8: Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:
Emily has AIDS! AIDS AIDS AIDS AIDS AIDS!
..weird.

9: Type in"[your name] works" in Google
Emily works with companies and organizations as a strategic communications consultant

10: Type in"[your name] lives" in Google search
Emily lives in her own reality, and her 'strength' comes through this -- though her victory is truly not one in the conventional way of thinkin

11.
Type in"[your name] likes" in google search
Emily likes bowls.

Okay. Back to causation.

nothing exciting

This blog always gets more attention when I have exams.

I feel quite surprised and very underwhelmed at the fact there is only five days until I turn eighteen.
I'm excited for my party, and I'm excited for new dresses and pretty shoes, and a lack of restriction if I want to go to a concert or something.
But other than that, it all feels rather anticlimactic.

Oh well =] I'm very excited for the girls coming over and then going to the concert of those people and then enjoying accompanying them out in public instead of to Maccas and home again.
hoorayyyy =]

Okay, STUDY TIME NOW GO

RAWR

THE DEEP SURVEY.
hah. Deep.

[1] What's one thing that would instantly make you dislike a person?
If they are driving anything less than 100ks on the freeway

[2] What do you do when you need to relax?
Lie on my bed and look out the window. And eat nutella.

[3] Why do you think there is war in the world?
Because people get bored and like exploding things.

[4] Do you think it's OK to sometimes tell lies?
I lie all the time. Exaggerating is lying, and it's a part of my daily vocabulary. So....no, but it depends on how.

[5] Do you like things in life to stay how they are or change?
I'm not fussed, everything usually ends up good.

[6] If someone liked you, what would be the best way to let you know?
Um.. tell me nicely. And not delay it, get it out and over with. In a nice way, with flowers and nutella.

[7] What are you listening to right now?
Rain =]

[8] If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first?
Say goodbye debt for the family! And a holiday around the world.

[9] Would it change your life?
Eh. Maybe. Or not.

[10] What was the last thing you purchased?
Tissues. How exciting?!

[11] What do you do when you're stressed out?
Gnaw and bite pens. It hurts my teeth =[

[12] Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
Um... yes =]

[13] Do you believe in Aliens?
No, btu it doesn't phase me. If they're out there,that's lovely. As long as they don't eat me.

[14] Could you forgive a boyfriend or girlfriend who physically hurt you?
What did they do? If they like, bit my ear off, or burst my carotid vein or artery or wahtever... probably not. But if they, say, dropped something on my foot I could get over it.

[15] What's your greatest fear in life?
FAILING AHHHHH

[16] Do you have a best friend?
Sure I have a lovely collection =]

[17] Are you afraid of death?
Nah, but I'd like a bit more life for now thankyou =]

[18] Do you think parents should stay together for the kids?
Hm... no cos it'd probably make everything else worse. But it'd be nice if htey loved each other enough to work things out as WELL as stay together for the kids. COS KIDS ARE ALRIGHT

[19] Can money buy happiness?
No, but nutella can.

[20] Are you looking forward to anything?
My eighteenth, exams being over, Sydney, holidays, hot cups of tea...

[21] Write some lyrics from the song you're listening ?
YOU SEXY THING YOU
No seriously, it's actually on the radio.

[22] Do you open up to people easily?
yeah, I don't do secrets. Well, thats a lie. But I don't do not being open. It's the best way to be.

[23] Has anyone gave you a compliment today?
Yes. It was 'you look very French'. And 'you smell good'. HOORAY

[24] What do your friends call you?
EM, Zyll, ranga.

[25] Has anyone upset you in the last week?
Um... nah =]

[26] What usually causes your relationships to end?
Nutella always comes first, people seem to have issues with that.
Also, the fact that I'm a man. Nah not really.

[27] Are you close to your parents?
Hm, sort of not really I don't know.

[28] What's the best thing about you?
My awesomeness and amazingness. And lack of fear to eat fatty fatty foods. And I spend money when I shop.

[29] Do you think you would be a good parent?
I can't say I've put much thought into it.

[30] Are you a forgiving person?
Yup! It's the best way to be.

[32] Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Shanon!

[33] Where is the last place you went out to eat?
MACCAS. *sigh*

[34] Whats your favorite drink?
COFFEEEEEEEEEEE

[35] Do you miss anyone?
Uhh... not really =]

[36] What were you doing at 3 AM this morning?
PANICKING

[37] Who do you hate?
People who don't drive fast on the freeway.

[38] Who was the last person who was in your room?
ME.

[39] Is your room clean?
NEVERRRRRRRR

[40] What are you going to do tomorrow?
STUDY FOR CRIM AND BE A NERD RAWR

[41] What is in store for your future?
GOD KNOWS! No really =] He does. I'll worry about it later.

[42] Do you take care of your friends while they're sick?
Umm....it depends. =]

[43] When was the last time you purchased something over $500?
NEVER.

[44] Any tattoos?
NO WAY. TATTOOS ARE PAINFUL!

[45] Favorite color?
Blue and greeeeeeeen

[46] Who is your favorite person to have a serious conversation with?
Hmm, there's lots of those! I couldn't even begin to name them all, but they all know who they are. They cop it a lot!

[47] Who was driving the last time you were in a car?
ME

[48] What kind of digital camera brand do you have?
Non =[ it broke. Hopefully there's a new one awaiting me on my birthday!

[49] Does any part of your body hurt right now?
MY ACHING HEART.
Nah I'm kidding =]
My nose hurts from blowing it so much.

[50] How many tickets do you have?
HAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHA
Oh dear

[51] Do you like coffee?
What kind of a question is that. It's more like 'is your body less than 50% coffee?' and the answer is no.

[52] Why are you doing this survey?
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GO TO BED AND THEN WAKE UP TOMORROW AND STUDY SO I'M PUTTING IT OFF BY DOING THIS CRAPPY SURVEY WHICH IS TOTALLY NOT DEEP SO YOU LIED

[53] Who was the last person that texted you?
Uh.... *thinks hard* maddy, the girl I tutor? Or perhaps someone else. I do not know.

[54] What does your twelfth message in your inbox say?
Pfft I don't know. Probably something along the lines of 'emily you're so awesome if you weren't in my life it would be empty and meaningless'.
They're all pretty much the same.

[55] What are you craving?
NUTELLA

[56] Whats the closest red thing to you?
My hair. HAHAHHAHAHHAA

[57] What is the last pill you swallowed?
COLD AND FLU. I HAVE MORE AWAITING MY INGESTION.

[58] How did you sleep last night?
BADLY

[59] What was the first thing you thought this morning?
EW NAZIS

[60] What did you do last night?
WENT OUT TO DINNER AND WATCHED MOST OF SHAWSHANK REDEMPTION EXCEPT THE END COS THE DVD BROKE AND NOW I'M SAD

61] Do you think you will be married 3 years from now?
NO FREAKING WAY
EMILY DOES NOT DO COMMITMENT!

[63] What were you doing at 7 am?
SNORING

[64] Are there any previous relationships you wish could have lasted longer?
EH WHO CARES
EVEN IF THEY'D LASTED LONGER THEY'D HAVE ENDED ANYWAY!!!!!
POSITIVE MUCH!!

I AM YELLING LOUDLY IN THIS SURVEY!
YELL YELL YELL
RAWR RAWR RAWR

Sleepy time =]

How To Know Life Sucks

When you realize your exam timetable is NOT WHAT YOU THOUGHT IT WAS, and you in fact have a HISTORY EXAM BEFORE YOUR POLITICS EXAM and you have NOT STARTED STUDYING FOR THAT UNIT BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT IT WAS AFTERWARDS.

The world hates me.
It really does.

Stress levels multiplied by five hundred zillion.
Sleeping levels most definitely decreasing by five hundred zillion.

Lame lame lame lame lame.
And who is born in the middle of uni exams.
I mean really. Whose silly idea was it to make sure my birthday is RIGHT SMACK BANG IN THE MIDDLE of all the exams and I have THREE (ONE OF WHICH I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING FOR) AFTER my birthday!
*cries*

*but is calm at the sight of nutella. lots and lots of nutella*

studying

My brain is overloading with information it doesn't want to take in. Parties to offences, the European Union, elements of homicide, the consensus and majoritarian aspects of Australian Parliament, assaults and grievous bodily harm and I really just do not care.
I have pages and pages of notes lying all over my room and I can't bring myself to look at them. I just want to sit there with my jar of nutella and eat it all and get fat and become a spinster and do nothing all day.
Now that's the life for me.

But in other news, I turn 18 in eight days, which has snuck up on me because I did not expect it at all. Everything in my mind is either 'before exams' or 'exams' or 'after exams'. None of this 'birthday' stuff.

I'm excited about my Cocktail party, and buying a new dress, and having all my lovely people around to enjoy being lovely together.

But before then, I must memorize my verbs and know my sentence structures, and explain politics in multi choice form and write history essays and say why A B and C are guilty of some offence, or not guilty at all.

It's all too much for my little brain. But I am very excited about the new Soul to Sole dance.

Emily Contemplates

So I read a few other blogs, and I have to say, I'm quite jealous of their awesome writing style. And ability to take great pictures, and make their page look really awesome, and just generally be artistic and also, really honest. I usually come on here and write some pointless lists or something, which give me a cathartic feeling of a compartmentalized life (Emily's ultimate, although definitely not ideal way to be).

There's a lot of things I have been contemplating lately. Like why I don't study harder, why I let myself get distracted, why I'm here, right now, doing the stuff I do with the people around me and the rituals and routines I have. It's all quite interesting. In some ways it makes me sad, and in some ways it makes me happy.

There are a lot of things I neglect to do. I neglect God, first and foremost. I neglect my health and well being, I neglect my ability to study and be productive in the things that matter, and I neglect to tell the whole truth all the time.

There are a lot of things I do okay at. I'm a loyal friend (even if I'm constantly busy and can never do anything), I get okay marks at uni, I save an okay amount, I do an okay job at tutoring and my job.

But when it comes to the things I'm good at, I'm just not sure. I'm good at writing lists, I'm good at eating chocolate and I'm good at not doing what I'll say I'll do, because I'll get distracted, or I'll choose not to, or I'll forget, or a billion other excuses that aren't good enough.

Nevertheless, I've also determined a few other things. A) I want to get it right. B) I'm not so insecure that I'll start making choices and doing things that I don't want to. I may be a chronic people-pleaser, coupled with my (weird) lazy perfectionism, but my conscience and God help me to stay fairly true to myself and what I believe. C) I make mistakes, but I don't live with regret. Who has time enough for that.

So, to finish what wasn't meant to be a depressing post at all but has turned into one, on a happy note - life is pretty much one of the greatest things ever. I love the fact you can fill it with whatever you want: materialistic things like cheap clothes, shoes and jewelry; waste of time things like blogs, Facebook and MSN;productive things like study, learning, reading; fun things like movies, creating and going out; deep things like questioning, thinking and formulating answers; or nothing. And as much as I'm one of the most indecisive people I know, I don't live with regrets so if I just choose what I want to do and stop messing around, life will get done.
That is all.

Emily Enjoys Lists

I love lists. They make life appear nice and ordered and compartmentalized.

Music Emily has Embraced:
1. Lior
2. Idlewild
3. Architecture in Helsinki
4. The Go! Team
5. Damien Rice

Things That Annoy Emily:
1. Washing my hair and having all my hair fall out
2. Washing my hair and having my ears being filled with water that won't go away
3. Being lame and failing at life
4. Getting my apron stuck in the washing machine
5. Broken cameras

Chocolate Emily Loves:
1. Darrel Lea dark chocolate coated red licorice bullets
2. Cherry Ripe
3. M&Ms
4. Lindt milk chocolate
5. Curly Wurlies

Units Emily will do next semester:
1. Linguistics
2. Criminal Law II
3. Politics
4. French

Things Emily Will Do In Her Holidays:
1. Go to Hillsong
2. Spend lots of money in Sydney
3. Reorder everything
4. Finish the stupid embroidery thing
5. Buy buttons
6. Drink a lot of coffee
7. Find a new job

Things That Make Emily Upset:
1. Making Mistakes
2. Legal Process
3. Fines
4. Ugly Wallets
5. Lack of time
6. Broken Cameras
7. No chocolate
8. No coffee
9. Being tired
10. Making mistakes (it needs mentioning twice)
11. Exams

Things That Make Emily Happy:
1. Chocolate
2. Coffee
3. People who are always around
4. Photos
5. Cameras that work
6. Being 18 soon
7. Having money saved for later expenditure on exciting things
8. When things just click in your head and everything makes sense
(Il faut que j'etudie le subjonctif - il n'est pas utile, mais je le comprends!)
9. Hot showers
10. Movies =D

Emily Likes Buying:
1. Chocolate
2. Coffee (these two things feature a lot on these lists don't they...)
3. Hot Chips
4. Pretty, cheap clothes
5. Fun, exciting, on-sale accessories
6. Awesome shoes
7. Birthday Presents

Emily's Best Feelings In the World:
1. Finishing a notebook of work
2. Listening to music that perfectly suits my mood
3. Laughing a lot a lot at really really lame movies
4. When everything makes sense
5. Understanding something someone says to me in French and being able to reply
6. Making a big massive sale at work which means we get over $15 from one customer
7. Getting mail
8. Feeling refreshed

That's all.

because i can

Do you like the person you are becoming?
This question's a bit deep for me.
Give me an easier one.

Do you currently find yourself to look cute?
LAME. Well I'm wearing my new top that I bought for $4 and that's cute. So my top looks cute and that counts.

What do you want for Christmas/ or your next birthday?
I hate being asked this question! Well, I really would like my camera fixed. That's about it. I really don't care, if people buy me something I'll like whatever they buy me. And if they don't buy me something I really relaly just don't care.

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
I do it all the time. I got on the wrong train the other day. I had the choice of two - and I chose wrong. And I catch that train every day. That explains to you what a fool I am.

What song is stuck in your head?
LIOR. Specifically, Autumn Flow. It's so pretty and relaxing.

Are you obnoxious?
I go to UWA.

Can you name one song by the Beatles?
weallliveinayellowsubmarine lucyintheskywithdiamons heyjude iwannaholdyourhannnddd...

i grew up on the beatles

Are you forgetting something now?
The fact I no longer have a job and thus have no money so should stop spending it?
The fact I should be at uni?
They're all things I'm forgetting on purpose.

Do lectures bore you?
OMG. YES. AHH.
I have been to about three history lectures ever because that man is SO BORING.

Did anybody ever call you beautiful?
I get it all the time.

What is the nearest book to you called?
Analyzing American Politics: A New Perspective. Equally near is Revolution in Russia: Reassessments of 1917.
I'm such ane xciting person.

Are you passive or aggressive?
Passive aggressive.
Aggressive aggressive when I'm driving on the freeway and noone gets out of my way

Ever seen a ghost?
Pfft.

A place you’ve lived that you miss?
This is the only place I remmeber living. Besides our old house, but this house is nicer. I have more room.

Person that you miss?
I miss people all the time. But I'm always more excited to see them than missing them. IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
I don't know why that's in capitals.

Someone you need?
YOU

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
Nah. Thirty to thirty-five are fine ages. Before then no.

A memory from secondary school?
The ball. The girls. Coffee. TEE. LEAVERS. Cheap cheap turkish bread.

Ever have a crush on one of your parents’ friends?
EW EW EW EW EW.
That is wrong on SO MANY LEVELS. All of my parents friends are parents and married!

Something you’ve always wanted to learn how to do?
Be awesome. I'm learning slowly.

Last item you bought yourself?
hahaha, breakfast, $4 top, headband, bracelets and a pinup board. I love shopping =D

What did you have for breakfast?
Croissant and coffee

Live at your parents’ house?
Sure do! I couldn't imagine living on my own. How much money i wouldn't have.

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
It's never the same. And it's never enough. Oh well.

What do you wish you were doing?
French. I might go do it now. I love french =D

What’s the last thing you said to someone & to whom?
Okay bye! To the lady who called up for mum.

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Work my last shift at MOO. BECAUSE WE'RE CLOSING. AHHHH.

What cd is currently in your cd player?
I don't own a) CDs b) a CD player. I'm listening to Lior. On the computer.

Can you whistle?
Nope. Well, sometimes by accident.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
Naaaah I'm good with what I have. If I had a nose piercingall the snot that's constantly in my nose would come out of the hole. And that would be gross.

Do you get along better with boys or girls?
I don't think it really matters - I get along with some people better than others, irrespective of whether they're guys or girls. Cos some people are awesome. And some people you just don't click with.

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
ALL. I can't make up my mind.

What are you listening to?
Stuck in A War - Lior

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
The lady who wanted to know if Mum got their flyer.
Pushy much?

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Brooke! Right up the road =D

What did you do yesterday?
Handed in my history essay, caught up on French and worked my second last shift at MOO

What’s bothering you right now?
How freaking tired I am.

What gets in your way of your sleeping?
Stress about whatever else I should be doing.

Well that was boring.
I feel so relieved with only legal process journals to worry about! And Spicks and Specks tonight!
=D
Emily is happy.
Tired, but happy. And has a cool new four dollar top =D I love cheap clothes.

incoherency

Only four more days until scary deadline life or death assignments are totally and completely over...
How exciting! =]

It was lovely spending my weekend seeing people I've missed.
It will be even lovelier when I don't have assignments to feel guilty about!

In other news, I have a music taste and I won't be sleeping tonight until I've proven once and for all that the October Revolution was a coup d'etat in 2000 words!
Go Emily go

I have not worked in so long, I am exceedingly poor.
Except I have new tutoring people, so hopefully that will make me exceedingly rich!
I sitll find it ironic I tutor maths and chemistry, when I do a Law degree and an Arts degree.
Hm. Never mind =]

I have a big long list of things to do once I get my life back =] I'm so excited!
Reading Criminal Law cases (I actually am excited, these cases are always exciting), seeing my people, printing more photos and putting them up, turning eighteen, going to Sydney and seeing button shops and Hillsong life, buying stationery, finish all the Jane Austen books, properly studying French so I can start to speak it and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping!
And working more often and less badly
Hooray! I love life even though it makes me so tired.
What an incoherent post.

Emily is a barrel of contradictions

I am a highly inter-contradictory person.

I don't like fancy food, but I love fancy cheese.
I don't like tomatoes, but I love tomato sauce on every thing that is meaty.
I don't like disorganization and messiness, but I can never be bothered cleaning up my room or putting my own stuff away.
I hate fancy, impractical shoes, but I also love them.
I hate wasting time, but I always do anyway.
I get annoyed when people say they could've done better, but they didn't try, but I do that too.
I don't like it when people don't do what they say they will, but I do it all the time.
I don't like glossy, expensive fashion magazines, but I like to look at them and wish all the clothes were mine.
I don't like wasting money, but I spend it all the time.

I'm excited for Liz and my curry expedition and musical extravaganza tonight. We are going to have an excellent time.
And I bought a new dress today,a nd shoes yesterday!
New things always make life more exciting.

I'm rather behind the eight ball in quite a few aspects of my life, but today I have, for no particular reason, been injected with positive energy and attitudes and I can totally get in front of it.

My cousin is getting married tomorrow! Which is all very exciting because she is lovely, and her fiancee is lovely, and her kid is lovely and now they can have a nice lovely family of loveliness!

I'm excited with all sorts of exciting plans coming up for an exciting month.

Sydney and Hillsong is totally booked now, except for accommodation. Well, I guess that's kind of important. But I'm so excited for cool stationery, button shops and new clothes and things! How great!

I was considering quitting Moo, but I'll stick around for a bit longer. My only problem is there is many weeks I cannot work, which may mean Flo might fire me anyway. In which case... I'll just go get a new job! Hmm... I would like to work in a cafe. But not a hard cafe. and something that fits into my free time and pays me lots. And that I can not feel guilty about not showing up. Or whatever. Hmm.. I'll think about it.

I really want to do something exciting to myself, liek cut my hair or get a piercing or something. But I have to say, I dont want any other piercings, and I don't want to cut my hair any different or else I might hate it! I suppose i could always be creative iwth my fringe. Or maybe, I could like cut my hair short on one half and leave it long on the other. That'd look awesome.

Can you tell I'm ranting??

I miss a lot of people.
Here is a shout out to the people I miss:

Lauren, Lindsay, Kim, Nat, Ari, Sally, Jessie, Laura, Lizzii (I'm seeing her tonight! Woohoo!) Megan, Kat cos I never see her anymore, Andrewww, Caitee, Nathan

And there are more but they'll do for now. Oui.
And I'm going to eat lunch now!
Au revoir

coming together

I really love it when everything starts falling into place, and life goes back to its sense-making, compartmentalized, synthesized, awesomized and wonderful self.

Criminal Law makes sense. French is making sense. Legal Process is still a waste of time but it makes sense. Politics is greatly making sense. History is readalicious but it always makes sense. My job makes sense. Maths tutoring may not actually make sense seeing as I don't study maths, but I can still make it make sense, and better yet, make it make sense to other people. The people in my life make sense in all sorts of wonderful, crazy and happy ways. Dance makes all kinds of relaxing, exciting and exhilarating sense. My study system makes sense. Warm clothes make sense. My new music taste makes sense! Heck, public transport makes sense. And coffee, that always makes sense.

So that's all I've really got to say - everything fell into place in my head today and I decided to share.
=]

I just visited my cousin and her new baby and he is just the most beautiful thing in the world. It amazed me how different people's lives can be, even when they're the same age living a ten to fifteen minute drive away, and growing up in the same family. But it was so lovely to squeeze his big cheeks, and catch up on life together.

That's all.

rambling along

I need to learn how to actually do my to-do lists. I have a list obsession, but I never seem to complete them, I just write them.
I think thus far, I have failed miserably at the whole uni and life thing. So I am going to change.
There are a lot of things I want to be able to fix.
First and foremost, my schedule, my assignments and my completion of to-do lists.

I've also decided I am quite similar to Emma from Emma. She reminds me of me in a lot of ways. That is kind of depressing, but who knows, perhaps it is a good thing.

I love my new box. I haven't got anything to put in it, but it was two dollars and it's all kinds of awesome. i shall have to think of exciting things to fill it with.

This is just for me to fill in time while my hair dries and I can go to sleep.

I'm so disappointed with the whole uni lifestyle thing. I would love to find some people who do more than just drink in their spare time. But somehow I don't think they exist. That makes me sad.

I'm also thinking I could cut my hair. Just for a change.
But I probably won't.

I counted a lot of things today. It was a lot of counting. It almost did my head in. There were over two thousand tub lids. TWO THOUSAND. And for once, I'ma ctually not exaggerating! Although that is an awful habit of mine!

I'm getting progressively worse at French, because I have no time to actually learn the words and retain what they mean and wehther or not they're masculine or feminine. And how they fit in a sentence and how they should be conjugated and wehther they should be conjugated.

I'm thinking I should do a linguistics unit instead of an english unit next semester.

I need a new music taste. Mine sucks.

I'm excited for saving lots of money for Hillsong.

ad my hair is dry. so i'll go now. and you can no longer waste your time reading this.
you know what's really fantastic?
tea.

i'm going to join a gym i think

disappointment

Massive Edit:

I am very sad right now.

I like camping I do believe.

My hair is finally clean.

And I had curry with my fam.

So life is good.

Well that was really depressing yesterday, so I thought I'd do a really really happy post to make up for it.

Yup.

I'm halfway through my Criminal Law Assignment I had lots of coffee today I have lived in my pjs and trackies and been really comfy all week Salty Weekend was fantabulous i quite like my job a lot uni isn't as hard as it comes across my friends are quite awesome and i love them to the max i got given my $2000 from julia guillard today so i am rich i may be going to hillsong in sydney and seeing laura from England at the same time which would make me super happy i love winter and its wintry effects i love wok in a box i'm excited for wearing boots my room is still semi clean i've kept under my phone limit so far this month i have lots of junky food in my room we're going roadtripping to collie on saturday i'm seeing my school girls next friday freo are playing a game on friday night and even though we're going to lose i'm going to go and pretend i love it and see mich and hopefully other people i'm going to start riding my bike again dance starts again next week and i thought of some awesome choreography God's shown me some cool verses in the Bible. I'm taking it slowly but surely mum bought me a massage for Friday =] I'm reading Emma and it makes me smile my eighteenth is underway for being planned and exciting i'm going to buy a red dress just because i can pretty shoes make me smile i am gradually building up an ability to hold a conversation in french i have some more tutoring lovelies to stock up my cash tax-free dollars pile shopping is therapeutic i have a duck on my desk i love water i love life happy times the end.

a big rant

I'm really good at saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. I'm really good at being blase about too many things, until they get so big that dealing with them is way too difficult. I'm really really good at keeping my distance, or being close to lots of people to avoid having one really strong connection. I'm good at avoiding what I know I should do to. I'm also very very good at procrastination. I really like honesty, but it scares me a lot. I pray that I could be dedicated and focussed. I wish I could set realistic goals. I wish I could finish my to-do lists. I'm really good at not taking things seriously to avoid getting upset and hurting others. Which just leads to getting upset and hurting others. I can light a fire, and I can listen to you talk, but I can never tell you 100% what I'm thinking. I waste hundreds of hours to avoid failure. My perfectionism and people pleasing mean I can't get out of vicious cycles of wanting what I don't have. I don't know what I want right now. I don't really know what God wants right now. I just want to hide in my room and eat and waste time and pretend there is nothing important I'm being called to do so I don't fail at it and hurt you. I want to be uncommitted to everything so that i don't hurt those bonds of commitment. I want to get those stupid things right. I want to stop pretending to have life together and actually get it together. And I'd like to work out how to surrender all that too.

One day.

What could you ever trade your soul for?
_{- Mark 8:37}

lame

Emily just can't seem to get anything right now, can she.
Nope.

slice of life

Friday: Food shopping. Re-checking myer in case there is an awesome jacket slash boots I just couldn't find. A date at Murdoch with Nat the vet student and Dr. Who lover. Who will show me her noses. Quick scramble to do packing for Salty weekend. Listen to yesterdays lectures I skipped. Roadtrip with Lauren, Geoff and our lard. Salty weekend eating time. Is everything I do based around food? More food. Crash and die quietly. In the comfort of chalets.

Saturday: Hm. Good question. That will be a surprise. Some extreme fondue action in there somewhere.

Sunday: Probably be really fatigued from extreme fondue. Sleep in car on the way home. Die in bed, wake up and realize it is study break. But not as exciting as it seems because OH YEAH Emily skips all her lectures and now she needs to catch up on them. And do a Crim Assignment. And read three eighty page cases. And do her readings. And get ahead on her other assignments. And stop slacking. And work with yoghurt and tutor and remember what maths is and go to the footy. So write a list of things to do. Procrastinate. Probably drink coffee. Bed.

Study Break, or, as it should be better known, Procrastination break. Write lots of lists, do the easy things first and hten leave all hard things till the end. Stress, die, go out to feel better, spend lots of money, become broke and then finally start work at 1 int eh morning. BUT I will have lots of nice pretty new things so it will be worth it!

The following Week...
COLLIE. After working with fun fun yoghurt.

Then back to uni. Hooray =]

In other great news, I spent a lot a lot of money tonight in about an hour and a half. But I'm still not done! But there should always be some reward for working hard and remembering maths and playing with yoghurt. Imagine if we close. I'd have to work somewhere nice and non-smelly. DEAR GOD, THE THOUGHT.
I think I'm quite tired. I think I should sleep.
ASAP.

=]

Spell your name without an E,S,H,I,M,A
ly lon zyltr
how ironic is it that my last name still looks the same =S

What’s your favorite number?
I don't really do the whole favourite number thing. They're all kind of the same to me.

Favorite color?
green or blue.

Least favorite color?
Je deteste le rose! I really hate pink.

What are you listening to?
The shower going. No music now though.

Are you happy with your life right now?
Sure. Like, there's some things that just make me sad, but on the whole it is quite great at the moment!

Favorite Subject?
I'm going to substitute the word 'subject' with 'unit'. And that would Criminal Law, or Political Theory.

Favorite smell?
Ralph Lauren Rocks. Well, it rocks, but also the flavour. Smell. Whatever. And campfires.

How do you make money?
I do the hard sell with yoghurt. I tutor maths which is ironic because I don't even do it anymore. And I babysit. Sell myself. Just kidding about the last one. Seriously.

Are you outgoing?
Well yes, but not like aggressively so. I can be quiet toooooo

Do you like Big Mac's?
Non, je prefere le quarter pounder. Yup.

Do you own big sunglasses?
HA. No. I own loser prescription ones, because without them I can't even tell if a car is indicating. It's awful.


Where do you wish you were right now?
Metaphysically a higher state of consciousness and well being. That was lame.
Physically, I don't really mind. I am happy anywhere I go.

What should you be doing right now?
My French devoir. And a history essay. LAME.

Can you touch your toes?
Sure can. But I have rather short legs. It makes it kind of easier.

Can you whistle?
No, but it's a life skill I'm sure I could do with. What if one day I get stuck in the forest and I can't find anyone because I can't whistle and make enough noise to be seen?
I mean, I could shout or something. But whistling is so much cooler.
Oh, and I mean heard, not seen.

Can you wiggle your ears?
No, I cannot

Can you roll your tongue?
Isn't it joined at the back of your mouth? So like, you can't roll it?


THE DIDS:

Did you ever want to be a doctor?
I don't really do blood. or cutting people with scalpels. or vomit. or sad sick people.
probably not really my scene on the whole.

Did you ever receive an engagement ring?
Oh you know, every now and again.

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?
No, but Fireman Sam was one of my favourite TV shows ever!

Did you ever swim in the ocean?
Are you serious?


THE DOS:

Do you believe in God?
I do.

Do you know how to swim?
I'm fairly aware of hte whole concept, yeah.

Do you like roller coasters?
NO FRIGGING WAY WORST THINGS EVER INVENTED

Do you own a bike?
Oui, j'ai un velo! yes I have a bike!
What an unexciting possession!

THE DOES:

Does hair loss run through your family?
Uh no. We all have a full head of hair.

Does your car get good gas mileage?
Yes. I suppose.

Does your family have family picnics?
For like, birthdays. But there'sso many of us it gives me headaches.

Does your home have a bookcase?
Yeah, but it's only with my stuff.


THE HAVES:

Have you ever been to Canada?
Sure have! It was nice =]


Have you ever gone fishing?
Once and never again. I caught the same fish twice and it was all slimy and wriggly. Rank.


Have you ever seen a celebrity?
See them all the time in the movies. It's quite fabulous.

Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
Yes, but that was scary.I'd like to go again on a less scary one.



THE HOWS:

How much money do you have on you right now?
like twenty five. i gave some cash to the parents.

How many cars have you owned?
none!


How many jobs have you had?
six! wait.... eight!

How tall are you?
just tall enough.


THE LASTS:

Last thing you said out loud?
My ear hurts. A lot.

Last time you ate at McDonalds?
Uhhhh....a little while ago.

Last grade completed?
YEAR TWELVE! DONE AND DONE. No more high school for me.

Last thing you bought?
A cookie. It was yum =]


THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside?
Night. If that's a temperature.
It is now.

What time did you wake up?
8:30! It was the best thing ever!

Well, now that I've officially wasted all that time, I was going to say something deep and profound. But I don't remmeber what it was.

Week's plans:
Wednesday: Dance! Uni. Essay.
Thursday: uni, working and deciding on fun fun themes for parties.
Friday: Shopping for Salty food, handing in godforesaken history essay, having lunch with nosey-Nat (she is doing vet and she gets to see noses), more shopping for other fun things, road trip to salty!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hooray. For a quiet weekend with no no work =]

what emily likes about life

Stage Shows, especially really good ones, like Miss Saigon.
Being busy but not tired. That is not entirely true of the moment, but never mind! One day it will be.
Learning really cool things about Law, Politics, History and French.
Finding about the weird and wonderful world of Criminal Law
Brushing my hair
Being paid to do stuff, and thus having money to do other stuff which is always better than what you're paid to do
Gatherings of friends
The occasional bit of solitude
Chocolate
The colour orange and the shenanigans of wearing orange in a tigerish form on Canning Highway
People not knowing too much.
Jane Austen and her hilariously funny recollection of life
Comfortable pjs
slowing getting direction
letting other people make decisions for me
reliving the St. Hilda's Arts Fest experience
pretty dresses
relaxing songs
discovering the benefits of typing lectures and going to lectures so you don't have to listen on lectopia later. because lectopia is ghey
chocolate froghurt & hot showers_{not together =S}

And nice hugs. And what it feels like after crying, which is emo. Not that I've cried at all recently =S I was just thinking about how nice it always feels AFTERWARDS. It's like your eyes get washing, in a more-than-literal way.

april

Some interesting facts:
* in France they have April Fish instead of April Fools. That's just weird.
* dance is exciting and wonderful
* my phone bill has soared once again
* my leg is still peeling
* I have an assignment about the Simpsons and Criminal Law. How ironic.
* I miss Easter and the good excuse it gave you to eat chocolate
* everyone has a boyfriend all of a sudden=S
* tea is so wonderful
* it is almost winter clothes season!
* A Beautiful Mind is my new favourite movie
* Mum is STILL addicted to Big Fat Loser.
* I'm going to turn into one of those pretentious people who use a laptop in lectures
* except it's kind of weird because my Mac is really noisy
* I love Juno
* I'm also contemplating cutting my hair
* There are not many days until Salty weekend and Collie roadtrip!
* Je vais acheter les oeufs. I just like those weird words
* Driving is ghey

hmmm

I've been thinking about some things. I have decided to discuss them.

1) Busyness. As in being busy all the time, every second of every day with no break. That kind of busy. I'm trying to decide if this is a good thing. In some ways you're getting out everything you can of your day and your time and all of that. So you are productive. But then in other ways you may potentially be burnt out. Or stressed out, or something'd out. But I don't know if there's such thing as a healthy balance. And how do you even know what to say 'no' to anyway? Some people seem to have that all sussed. But it is way too difficult to discern. And who do you please?

2) Privacy. What is the best thing to be? Like not tell anyone anything, or be really open? Or find some middle ground? I swear the middle ground does not exist though. It cannot. And one thing I struggle with is telling people things and them feeling as though now they're a part of it. I guess it's important to decide who to share your life with and who you want accountability from, and who you don't. But that's hard.

3) Being focussed. I lose focus very easily.So I'm wondering whether being multi-focussed is a good thing? I guess this kind of relates to busyness, but I mean in more a general kind of learning way - is it better to learn one thing at a time or have lots going on?

4) Working. I have one question. Is it PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE TO FORCE A CUSTOMER TO BUY YOGHURT ON A TUESDAY MORNING WHEN THERE IS LIKE NOONE AT GARDEN CITY? NO! SO HOW ON EARTH DO YOU EARN YOURSELF MORE SHIFTS IF NOONE WANTS TO BUY YOUR PRODUCT!

5) Middle ground. It is very hard to find the middle ground. Some help would be very nice, thanks.

6) Happiness. It perplexes me the amount of people who find it difficult to be happy. Or choose not to be. I get worried that maybe I'm being heartless? Feelings confuse me a lot.

And Fremantle lost, so I'm going to go cry now. *sob*

an update

Uni is good
Assignments are lame
Busses are mega lame
Especially when they break down on Mounts Bay Road
Pyjamas are good
Movies are fun
Highlighters make reading slightly better
coffee is now my lifeblood
European history is lovely
Law is lame
Lizzii's car getting broken into is lame
discussion is fun
Politics is good and exciting
New people are fun
Presentations are not
Easter is the greatest
Chocolate is my second lifeblood
Selling yoghurt isn't all that bad as long as I don't have to eat it
Driving is stupid
Guy was wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want his Memphis album
I love Memphis
I love showers too
And I like the slow progression to colder weather which suddenly has stopped
I like shopping
I like getting paid to help Discrete kids so I can go shopping
I no longer am organized
I'll fix that tomorrow
Hooray for exciting times

parlez-vous francais a l'universite?

This is the most disgustingly, horrifically sunburnt I have ever been in my life. Law Fresher Picnic, in Mandurah, with no shade, and pale skin means I am basically the brightest pink I've ever seen. It is extremely embarrassing. And hurty. HURTY to the max!! Also, Goon is your life enemy. Never forget it my friends. Never.

Week two of uni has confirmed for me that I like it and I like sitting in pretty cafes and looking at pretty trees and pretty grass and being studious. However, I'm quite overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to do and the amount of time I really don't have =S But I like learning to speak French, and learning about European history, and finding out the cool stuff of criminal law, and analyzing the political system. Not so much legal process. That is boring.

I also like the fancy old books you can get in the library. I had to read some of Hobbes' Leviathan for Politics,a nd it was all old and nicely bound, and had old fashioned English and was just generally lovely =] Lovely I say!

Anyway, the only reason I'm writing this is because I have lots and lots of reading to do adn I don't want to do it because my eyes are all dry and my skin is all burnt and generally I can't be bothered. Life is a complicated and wonderful thing. I read that just before. I tend to agree.

A bientot, ma cheries. J'etudie l'histoire tout de suite. Or something like that.

day two

after two days of being a uni student, i have discovered...

* flat whites are $1.40 in the ref
* the libraries are very intimidating
* people who use laptops in lectures are the most annoying people on the planet
* you have to read a lot
* you also have to study a lot
* it is necessary to fight for your place in the queue for the bus
* nothing exists outside of the law building, arts building and the guild village
* trees are nice
* books are heavy
* keep your phone permanently on silent
* avoid goon
* there are many boring lecturers
* always have cash
* eight am starts should be reserved only for science students
* don't go to the bookshop after ten am
* there are always lots of people walking around
* don't lose your campus card
* don't use the Arts toilets
* expect to see a million school people
* don't be late or else you get embarrassingly singled out
* everyone is a nerd

Happy happy happy

I just wanted to tell the world how ridiculously happy I am for the following reasons:

1. Lauren is home!
2. I have crossed off three things on my 'list of things to do before uni goes back'
3. Uni goes back next week!
4. Lauren is home!
5. Kat just may be my new yoghurt buddy!
6. *secret* but it still makes me happy!
7. I can play the first three pages of 'Dawn' and it doesn't sound bad!
8. Writing letters to Lizzii!
9. Finishing books!
10. Lauren is home!

And I am still sad Lindsay is living on the other side of the country. But I'm very happy she is going to be smart and a history nerd and have basically no contact hours so she can just shopa nd then tell me about all her bargains.

A tribute to Lindsay

Who leaves for Sydney forever tomorrow night to never return. Until July. I am sure she will be wonderful in the world of uni and colleges.
Lots of love her way